I think the hardest part about growing up is adjusting to change. As much as I put on a happy face everyday, I don't think I can keep it on forever. I smile and I laugh, and as cheesy as this sounds, it makes everything okay, but only in the moment. I wish I could feel content as I used to. I wish it wasn't so hard to welcome these changes, to accept that my life isn't always going to be the same. I wish my anxiety would stay hidden forever, but it always comes crawling back. I wish I could tame it, and make it stop clawing at my skull. I wish I wasn't so sad, and I wish I could be okay with everything that life has to offer. I wish I was okay with who I am, I wish I didn't doubt myself so much. I wish I didn't have such low self-confidence to the point where I'm taking small, meaningless comments to heart, and thinking that they define me.

I just wish someone would tell me if I'm setting myself straight, and I wish someone would just tell me that everything's going to be okay.