I can't help but feel that it's all my fault. I hindered everything and anything. I didn't try as hard as I should have. I didn't put as much effort as I should have. I'm so sorry for all the trouble I have caused you. I know you say you don't, and it doesn't seem as if you do, but I feel like you hate me so much. It was too much for me. I may sound like a wuss, but I couldn't hurt my family. I don't want to hurt you either. I truly care about you. Maybe this is why it happened so.