Exactly 21 days left until school starts. I can't imagine how this year will go. I mean yes I've experienced my first year of high school, but it's different where I attend. When you're a freshman, you're isolated from the upperclassmen since you go to a totally different building than the actual high school.

I'm excited yet I'm a bit terrified. It'll be fun seeing friends everyday and working hard at something because lately I've been doing nothing and I feel extremely unproductive. I guess I really do have to start on my summer reading assignments (although it's not a surprise that I've been dragging it off) because before we all know it, our schedules will be up and in no time at all the first day of school will arrive.

I think the thing I'm most terrified of is just not knowing anybody in any of my classes or my lunch periods. There's four lunches and god knows what lunches I'll get. Lunch is probably the most terrifying because what if you totally walk in there alone with a bunch of upperclassmen? Totally screwed. I'll look like a lost puppy if I don't find anybody I know.

I've made myself a very important sticky note on my desktop that reminds me what I have to improve otherwise I'll never achieve what I plan on doing this year. I guess I made it so that it will keep me in check and help me realize if I keep being lazy, then I'll never be satisfied with the grades I get and I can't complain since it's my own fault.

I'm trying to sort of improve myself and re-invent. Not really re-invent, but work on the things that I'm not so well with. I get angry easily so I'm trying to find a way to be way more zen and chill about things. Having a better attitude towards my parents, especially my mom. I get irritated and annoyed easily so I'm trying not to. Just go with what happens. It'll turn out better in the end instead of getting yelled at and both of us giving one another the silent treatment. Also trying to be a little nicer to people. It's not that I'm not nice, it's just I'm super blunt about everything and I never sugarcoat anything.

I have accomplished reading 1/3 of Farenheit 451. It's actually not as bad as I thought. The story's well written, but it's not interesting if you get what I mean. I still have yet to read my French Edition of Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone and The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I plan on buying Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro. I got interested in the book after watching the movie. I bet the story's extremely intriguing and there's something about books that make you want to never stop reading. I mean sure the movie probably told the plots and the important details, but when you read books you have more of a vivid imagination and you can just visualize things the way you want to.

As for events going on in my life, nothing much. Yesterday I made chocolate macarons with my sister. They're absolutely divine, but I can't eat more than one because they contain way too much chocolate. I mean yeah, it's a chocolate macaron, but the ganache makes it so rich and when you eat more than one it just clogs up your throat.

My sister's moving back to college this weekend. Three day weekend trip. I'll miss her lots. I always have fun with her. We don't fight a lot which is what I love. When she's away I'll be stuck with my parents and you can imagine how lonely I'll be at home. Nobody to rant to when I'm annoyed or angry or irritated. It's fine though, since she comes home on holidays, but that's rarely ever. I'm concerned who will help me get ready for this years homecoming dance since I actually plan on going.

Nancy's been in China for a couple of days now and I can't wait to see her when she comes back. We've gotten pretty close and I think it's safe to say we're somewhat super close friends. We've been e-mailing ever since she left the states. I hope she'll be okay when she comes back home though. She comes back three days before school starts. She'll have major jet lag and only a few days to prepare for the first day of school.

I'm looking at this post and I'm surprised at the fact that I wrote so much considering I barely blog anymore. I am also trying to change that, I want to blog more, so I'll try as often as I can. Although I see no point since not many people read my blog, but it's a place for me to rant and just say what's on my mind. I'm starting to enjoy blogging again.

If you read all of this I appreciate the fact that you did and I also appreciate the fact that you think I'm not boring.  Thumbs up!